NEW BLOG...

because this one is not working right...i have created another blog. please do not come to this site anymore b/c i will not be updating it.

go to:
www.steph-moretothislife.blogpsot.com

sorry for the inconvenienc!

irritated but happy

something has happened to my blog. all the stuff that was on the side ended up at the bottom of the blog. i deleted all the page "elements" on the template page and still can't get it to do right. so i'm mad and if anyone has any helpful ideas it would be much appreciated!


by the way, i'm enrolling Mattie in a Cheernastics class! she's going to flip! it's here in town and it sounds like she's going to learn a lot! And i will be paying for out of the "not eating out" fund!!

The pics are of Ryder when he was just a few months old!

first let me say that if this is offensive to any of my friends/readers that have worked or do work in the fast food/restaurant industry....sorry. this is my opinion.

eating out is of the devil. i'm convinced that it is a tool that that sucker uses to get you to waste your hard earned money but somehow feel like you earned that plate of over priced food. i will not tell you how much money we have wasted in just the last week and a half on eating out. it sickens me. brian always looks at the wasted money on eating out as money that could have been used to pay a "harley" note. blah blah blah

i am banning us from all restaurants - fast food and sit down for at least the rest of January. and after that just once a week. now of course this is going to force me to cook more but oh well so be it.

mattie wants to take cheernastics and i found a place here in town and it's only $45/month. that is roughly 3 trips to a restaurant. besides i'm saving up for a surprise for brian so the money's gotta come somewhere.

so i'm giving up breadstix w/ cheese and meximelts....oohh that sounds so good...for the next month. sacrifices

have i lost myself?

who am i?

a Christian - I love my Lord - my savior, redeemer, friend, abba - father, alpha & omega, mercy, forgiveness, never leaves me, my comfort, my joy, ever present help in time of trouble, light house, knows my future, new me before i was formed, loves me, desires a relationship w/ me, all consuming fire, patient, kind, loving, beautiful, knows who i am and loves me anyway, my all in all, thinks aobut me all day and all night. i'm always on His mind.

sports- do i really like them as much as i let on? well, up until this year not so much. in 8th grade i watched the Lakers and the Celtics play during a championship playoff thing. in high school i was in the band so i had to go to the football games. which i really enjoyed doing - particularly when Dan S. was playing - but didn't pay too much attention. college, well now that's a different story....baseball groupie oh yes i was one during my soph and jr year! basketball, for a season my senior year. then some long haired cutie came and swept me off my feet and he was into magic/illusions stuff so, sports see ya later. my sister attended TAMU but not once did i ever go to a game w/ her. don't think she ever went to one either - correct me connie if i'm wrong. well, actually one time me and Brian were on our way to an Aggie game w/ Connie and some of Brian's Buckner friends but i hydraplaned and wrecked my car on the way so we didn't make it. but this year has been different. i've given into watching UFC and football. crazy. i'm actually interested in these two things. on side kick roughing the kicker arm bar, choke hold, matt hughes, hester, flynn, tito ortez....i can tell ya what that stuff is and who they are! weird

snow skiing - i hate being cold but i really like to ski. i must be covered from head to toe. getting irritated if one part of my body is getting cold while i'm making it down a run. even if my wrists are cold i have to fix it.

water - LOVE IT! in or near it i don't care. lake ...ocean just get me there.

paintball - nope - never will i be apart of this sport...whatever you call it. read me loud and clear NEVER NO NEVER! anything that brings pain and leaves half dollar sized bloody whelps ....this girl will NOT be apart of. now if mattie or ryder feel so inclined to be apart of it - whatever go for it. but ask me to name parts of a paintball gun and i bet ya i'd get it right. too many late nights watching Brian clean his guns.

TV - love watching it. spend hours doing it. spend hours wasting my time when there are floors to be swept, dishes to be put away, clothes to be washed....a precious little girl and boy i should be playing w/.
in my defense....this saturday i spent the day playing w/ them and watching whatever Mattie wanted to watch. i even took a nap when Ryder took his. we got out the train set, hot wheels, and play dough - it was a really nice Saturday. Brian was at the church preparing his sermon so he didn't get to play but he was there in spirit:)

teaching - i really loved teaching and hope to get to do it in the future. guilt runs through my veins like ice water b/c i'm working when i should be at home w/ Ryder. i always said i wasn't going to work until the kids were back in school but things change. i love my job. it's easy and i get to see Brian everyday and help him. but one day i will return to teaching if that's where the Lord wants me.

Brian asked me one day what i enjoy doing...a hobbie....and i honestly couldn't name one. besides being w/ him and my family. i guess they are my hobbie. and i guess the Lord's in there somewhere:) of course he's my favoritest hobby. people please know i'm being funny.

i just thought of one - I LOVE CREATING THIS BLOG. it's an outlet for me...just me. and though it seems there's a lot of brian and mattie and ryder....well, hey they're my world so of course your gonna hear about them. but there's apart of me here too.

so in answering my own ?...no i haven't lost myself...i was never lost to begin with.

on a more serious note...

just wanted to send out a prayer request for my family:





Mom - b/c she's a private person....just pray for her health and for wisdom!







Connie - Thyroid Disease - her thyroid decided it didn't want to work anymore so in turn that has turned her world upside down.
Insomnia - due to the medication
Cyst on one of her ovaries - they said it doesn't look like anything major but hello! add this to the above and it is major to some people. she will go back to the dr. in a month




Brian's parents....for God to intervene and bring them back together. miracles happen everyday right.






just when you think your world is ok, God decides to have some fun and grow ya up. not that any of the above is any fun but ya know what i mean.

and they did.

just wanted y'all to know your options if you wanted to buy any LSU stuff!

ok i'm done.

now gotta concentrate on the NFL playoff games. are those words actually coming out of my mouth/computer? don't really care just as long as the Pats don't make it i'll be happy!

ellllllesssssuuuuuu

just wanted everyone to know that they'll be beating the woohaaa out of the buckeyes tonight at 7:30 pm